Sup, so today was cool? Idk how I feel about it (I do know).
My focus of the day was on one thing, writing. I carried my bookbag that held my laptop, kindle, drawing book, pencil pouch, and laptop charger. I did leave my phone at the guest house in the morning, but I picked it late afternoon today…. It’s a fucking drug we inject by giving it attention.
I can’t let go of it, I constantly want to post?????? (is this because of my mental illiness (Major Depression and ADHD), i don’t remember my phone being so addicting least year, I feel conditioned, and controled.
Why? This is quite odd. And the pathetic thing about it is that I delete the picture OR story within 15 minutes of posting them. Even if it took 45 minutes to write down a caption (btw, I can fucking articulate with captions?????? Like???? I end up writing something and there is always an uncharacteristic grammar error (freudian slip?)) that I end up rewriting because I made a grammar mistake (lol).
The solution was quite simple however,
I turned it off and did something else.
A Day so intensely introverted that I became an Extrovert towards myself.
(think about that heading btw, it has depth)
So today I was a super Introvert (When last night was an outgoing extrovert (may write about it later? (no I wont)) It may have been because of the
- A. lot of medication
- B. I was hung over and hungry
I stood up for my beliefs today. Well, it happened last night with Neil, Jacob’s father (I am a guest at their lake house this weekend, for some context for context sake)
He was watching Fox 5 news and they were discussing the Canadian ruling of a Transgender woman is woman………………..
I may write what we debated about later? (lol (no))
The point is, I stood up for my beliefs, inside myself, and projected it outwardly,
and I loved the manner in which I did.
I was steadfast, smart, and I was able to grasp his perspective without resent, and spoke, most importantly, in the moment, the entire time (until I realized I was too drunk when I confused myself with my own question)
I was able to stand up to an individual I was normally silent to.
It’s like what Jordan Peterson said, “if you have something to say, silence is a lie.”Tweet
(I have no shame for this ^ nor do I know how it will look so fuck it, let’s see what happens with this new thing they added to this site)
With Love and Sincerity,
Jose Michael Rubio
Posted in: Overcoming Depression