I think the next demon, after Major depression has been knocked out, is Mild Depression.
Major and Mild Depression are two completely different monsters.
You see, Major Depression, from what I felt so far, can never be destroyed, but it can be knocked out. So it’s still there waiting for me If I ever fall back (Or choose to retreat back).
Mild depression is like the next challenger, he is a little deceptive. It’s genuinely easy to feel that everything is okay, and then suddenly feel as if I I’m bumming everyone out (but I’m not, it’s just in my head). Then I just behave as a timid version of myself, or really defensive, or really really quiet.
Then I feel okay,
And in the times that everything is fine, a slight depressed feeling hums in the background of my mind.
That’s personally dangerous.
(I’m getting too tired to continue writing so I’ll wrap this up)
Look, I can still be productive with mild depression, it just hurts like a fine and deep cut; no one will notice it besides me; it feels like a low resolution ,emotional vibration/ hum of sadness, it’s even felt when I’m working on something that normally brings joy and fulfillment.
It almost makes Major depression feel easier to deal with,
for at least I know I am extremely low, rather than dealing with a feeling of being half of my best self…
Mild depression, I can knock you out like I did to Major depression.
I am not afraid of victory.
I’m ready to be cured of depression once and for all.
With Love and Sincerity,
Jose Michael Rubio