The Book of Caitlin | September 14th, 2019

Here is a video that I created last night during my last fight with the source of the power of my inner demons; my ex looking through my phone (particularly the group chat of my closest friends, and scrolling through months of conversations then finding two topics:

  • when I said I was seeking a threesome with her friends (jokingly, I had no intent or motive to do such a thing, nor did I genuinely believe I had the Gaul to do such an act if the opportunity did present itself) and
  • when I disclosed her past in a jokingly, inappropriate manner, but with the intent of seeking advice on whether to continue to have a sexual relationship with an individual with such a traumatic history)


That was it. That was my last inner demon which gave birth to its brothers after that moment.

How did I come to such conclusion, even though I knew, full-heartedly, it all along, since the day she confronted me about my private group conversation on June 15th, 2018?


this Notebook: The Book of Caitlin.

My Journal from December 23rd, 2017, to July 20th, 2018.

That is all I choose to write at this moment.

With Love and Sincerity,

Jose Michael Rubio

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