Thoughts of the Morning- March 19th, 2022 | Two Selves United

Positive Thoughts of the Morning:

this week, I integrated my two selves: you see, my perception of myself was split into pre-hospitalization Jose, the “Ultimate” version (intact, perfect, everything I wanted to be (so I thought)), and the post-hospitalization Jose, the “Downgrade” version (divided, flawed, everything I ever despised (again, so I thought)).

One of the catalysts, as there were many that I was conscious and unconscious of, was an email notification from OneDrive (recently signed up for their 1TB plan): it sent a collage of photos of my first attempt to make a website. And honestly, the current direction, purpose, and sincerity of this website’s mission surpass what the “Ultimate” version of myself conceptualized. Then it dawned on me that I am better than who I was in more ways than one. And, effortlessly, these two selves united.

And I feel free;

I feel like myself, more than I ever was.

With love and sincerity,

Jose Michael Rubio

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